45 Stories – 20. Clarity

At the time we wrote this song, I didn’t realize how poignantly it would capture my state of mind at the time.

Winter of 2015-16.

I listened to this song for the first time in a while today, and it brought me right back to the feeling of that time. As only music can do. I was reclaiming my life and trying how to be human—again—after many years of numbness.

This song is about the times in life when we cry. This song is about any time we release a flood of emotion to get to the beauty on the other side. The pains hurt, but the pendulum always swings back the other way.

 

my love

she’s got a lot on her mind

when I look into her eyes

all I see is that which Is behind

we fight from the inside

to keep it all from spilling out

a purge of tears is never a weakness

to release is to keep the world spinning

when I was 13, I saw two beautiful people slowly fall away

from the bond they shared

mom, dad, I need you now

and I need you clear

I fall into shade

every time I fall away

but shadows give the light the means to make much stronger rays

so I fight

when I was 18, I rejected broken love

6 years down the line, I knew I could not hold on

to the guilt that made me feel

like I was a part of her plan to end herself

I fall into shade

every time I fall away

but shadows give the light the means to make much stronger rays

so I fight

when I was 31, I deleted a decade

I reclaimed my life from a free-fall

now is the uphill climb

to a better place

where I can see these times far above it all

 

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